Waiting Room

I've been wanting to post the lyrics to this particular song for five months now, but for whatever reason I keep forgetting. As I was sitting in the guest house the night before I left Kyrgyzstan, feeling every emotion possible, this song played on my iPod. It left me speechless because it said all the words that seemed to be trapped in my heart.
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Waiting Room: Shane & Shane

i will run when i cannot walk
i will sing when there is no song
i will pray when there is no prayer
i will listen when i cannot hear

sitting in the waiting room of silence
waiting for that still soft voice i know
offering my words up to the rooftop to Your heart
trusting that this closet's where You are

Lord i know if i change my mind
You will change my heart in time
Sovereign Lord this time's from You
so i sit in the waiting room of silence
cause its all about You

i will fight when i cannot feel
i will trust when You don't seem real
i will tell when i cannot speak i will step when i cannot see ...............................................................................................................................

These last seven or so months have been such a process for me, a journey that at some points have been extremely painful & confusing, but I am finding it is so worth the travel. Most days I find myself asking 'Why?' and 'What is the reason for this?' but lately the road has not been so bumpy or dark. I have found comfort in God's word and in being still before Him. He truly is the light that shines in the darkness.

Right now I'm in the process of reading 'Emotionally Healthy Spirituality'. This past week the chapter I've been focusing on is how important it is to take the time to rest (or the religious term: taking a Sabbath). How often do we really quiet ourselves and just rest? Stop the work. Stop the planning. Stop processing hard life questions/decisions. Enjoy what God has created. Go for a hike. Go for a walk. Talk with a friend without watching the clock. Take a nap. Play games with our family/friends. Read a good book. Spend time in Gods Word without feeling obligated.

Our culture is so obsessed with going, doing, producing, and working. "And if we aren't busy, we feel guilty that we waste time and are not productive. We are addicted to tasks, to doing, to work." (Peter Scazzero). Reading this particular chapter has really challenged me to take the time to Stop. Center (on God). Be Silent. & focus on Scripture each day.

Christians are always talking about having their 'quiet time'...making sure we get it done every day like an obligation. I have been reminded that it's not an obligation, but an honor to sit before God and be in His presence. And not only to do it once a day, but to re-focus at moments all throughout the day on my Creator.

I encourage you. Try it. Even if it's just three times a day for 2-5 mins at a time. Stop. Center. Be Silent. Focus.